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Sunday, August 13, 2006

	i got a new picture.. please tell me if you like it! megan
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Friday, August 11, 2006

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i havent updated in such a long time. i guess im guna get back into xanga and try to update more. iv been super busy lately. my life has changed so much just in the past few weeks. no one ever understands me.. not even my family. its okay though. its no use in trying to help them understand because i know they wont..

thats all for today

Megan

my most favorite people in the whole wide world..

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Sunday, November 27, 2005

&& i know when the phone bill comes,
i'll be grounded because we stayed up all
night talking about what we'd ever do if
we lost each other

&& he acts like he doesn't care, but we all know
he's falling apart [ without ] her beautiful smile..

You said you loved me.
I said: "Drop dead heartbreaker."

.. & she finally told him how she felt. she
downright spilled her heart out. .. & she
prayed to herself that he would care, but
he just walked away as she silently stood
there.. </3

Of course we'll meet new people and fall in love again.
Of course we're gonna hate each other and seek
out to hurt each other but we'll always have a history
that won't let us forget about each other no
matter how much we want to

FAKE iS THE NEW FUCKiNG TREND
&& EVERY0NE SEEMS T0 BE iN STYLE.

You see her in the hallways, you nod your head as she smiles at you with that perfect smile of hers when you walk by each other. But you would never think that tonight she will cry herself to sleep because she wanted to grab your arm so badly, just to say that she misses you.

there`s always a little bit of truth
... behind every " jUSt kiDDiNg "

hearts, promises, loyalty are all things
that can be broken, & a friend might break
them, but your best friends will always be
there with tape when you need it x3

everything is finally working out for everyone,
everyone is getting who they want & everything they want.
i`m extremely happy for them because they all deserve it,
but i can`t help but to wonder why it can`t happen to me..

D0N'T LET S0MEB0DY ELSE CREATE Y0U
BECAUSE 0NCE THEY D0, THEY CAN DESTR0Y Y0U..

RiGHT N0W L0VE iSN'T THE iSSUE
JUST WANNA BE THE 0NE T0
HUG & BE KiSSiN` Y0U <3

a kiss is a (pleasant) reminder that
(two) heads are better than (o n e) !

D0N't TElL ME WHAT i'M D0iNG WR0NG
..i SPEND H0URS REGREtTiNG THAT ALREADY.
tELL ME WHAT i'M D0iNG RiGHt.

Y0U'RE iN MY HEARt
WitH0Ut AN END. Y0U'RE
MY SiStER, MY LiFE, &
MY BESt FRiEND =)

iF i DiE, Y0U CAN SELL MY 0RGANS.
BUT i DON'T RECOMMEND THE HEART;
iT'S BR0KEN. < | 3

DO i LO0K LiKE A GROCERY iTEM TO YOU ?
i SEE YOU CHECKiNG ME OUT .. =D

& everything`s alright when
i look into his eyes. the feeling
i'm [ overcome ] with is too
intense to even describe __x3

I m J e a l o u s O f E v e r y g i r l
W h o H a s E v a H u g g e d Y o u
C u z F o r T h a t O n e M o m e n t
S h e H e l d M y E n t i r e W o r l d .

never be s a d for what is o v e r x3
..just be g l a d that it was once y o u r s

iT's THE LiTTLE THiNGS
THAT MEAN THE MOsT

If I fall in love with someone else..
it's not because I wanted to..
it's because you were never there to catch me..

i know they're socially retarted & weird
but they're my friends so promise you won't make fun of them

i knew from the very beginning that you were just a flirt
& yet i fell in love with you knowing i'd get hurt
i'll conceal my broken heart behind my smiling face
& though you thought i never cared , no one can take your place

lets play truth or dare
or we can just play dare
because no one tells the truth anymore

dont lie to a girl to make her happy
be a man & tell her the truth
because in the long run , it'll make everything better

they'll be two dates on your tombstone
everyone will read them. but the only thing
that matters is the dash - in between them

i cant do this, i cant do this anymore
do you understand how it feels being me?
where everything i do is never good enough
for anyone else & that no matter how hard
i try, the person i love takes me for granted
E V E R Y D A Y

my summer love never came
but im desperately wishing
for a WiNTER R0MANCE <3

you never know if you
want somebody or not unless
you give them a |[( chance )]|

It was real wasn't it?
We were just two kids;;
But we really loved each other. <3

Going to Highschool can be an absolute nightmare
someone will find you and create drama
you cant avoid it
Thats just how Highschool is.
People are shallow and dumb
and their gonna talk about you.
And guys are never worth fighting over
They're STUPID
- - LC

never give up on me, i will never give
up on you. you're everything i need,
oh, just look at what we've already
been through.. <3

Boy: So what are we?
Girl: I don't know. What do you want to be?
Boy: Whatever makes you happy.
Girl: I'm already happy. So what will make you happy?
Boy: You.

when you touched my hand for the
[ FIRST TIME ] - i wanted nothing more
than to hold it [ f o r e v e r ] <33333

The best way to behave ;; x3
is not to - Abercrombie & Fitch

You're simply amazing..I've never had
anyone like you in my life the way you
make me smile is just unbelievable<3

Lookin' in your eyes ;; I finally see the
truth // I've ~~never~~ loved anyone as
much as I love you x33

Love isnt about the hugs && kisses, Or the "I love yous" && the "I miss yous" Its about the butterflys you get && the chills that run up your spine && the pain that hits every inch of your body, the moment the person you love walks away

Your never given the ability to wish
without the ability to make it come
true [ Mickey Mouse ]

Your only as strong as
the alcohol you drink
the tables you dance on
& the friends that hold you
T o G e T h E r _______ x3

Don't look at me like that,
i don't feel like falling for you
all over again - - - i can't afford the heartbreak <3

&& all she wants is someone that will treat
her riqht. someone that will call her
beautiful when she needs it the most
someone that will love her endlessly.

you wanna see how much i l o v e you ?
go outside when its raining..
& catch the drops. the ones y o u catch is how much you l o v e me..
& the ones you miss is how much i . l o v e . y o u..

CRAZY DAYS
SCREWED UP NiGHTS
T0NS 0F CRUSHES &
STUPID FiGHTS
SECRETSz WE`LL TAKE
T0 THE GRAVE &
PiCTURES WE`LL F0REVER SAVE
THR0UGH THICK & THiN ALWAYS TRUE.
I DUNN0 WHY IM HERE WITH0UT Y0U.

Sometimes a person has to let go cus their fingers are too tired of holding on.
They'll always love you though. No matter what.

Yeah.. so i am finally understanding it..
we try so hard to be just friends..but we can't.

"i love you"
those 3 words could make or break a relationship</3

i wrote him a note saying..
" i wish you knew what it *
* felt like to be obsessed.. "
he wrote me back saying..
" what if i do " .. & smiled *

its NOT about being who EVERYONE else
wants you to be.. its about being yourself &&
finding SOMEONE who loves EVERY bit of it

The princess videos should be rated R
for telling lies to little children.
They'll dream of a happily ever after.
.....nope its all a lie.

i ask myself a million times a day.. what is it about him? && to tell you the truth. maybe it;s the way you can make me smile just thinking about you or how i know your thinking about me even if we can;t be together or maybe the way you can make me laugh without even trying.. im not sure but what i am sure about is im CRAZY for you.

&& your my first real love.
but i wouldnt want it any other way.

when she smiles. you know
somethings missing because
her eyes don't shine. like
they would if he was here

it's like falling asleep to a nightmare
&& waking up with a fairytale.

FRUStRAtED * cuz i can't tell if ti's real
MAD * cuz i don't know how you feel
UPSEt * cuz we can't make it right
SAD * cuz i need you day and night
ANGRY * cuz you won't take my hand
AGGRiVAtED * cuz you don't understand
DiSAPP0iNtED * cuz you don't feel the same
but i still love you && that won't ever change

HERE`S A LiTTLE ADViCE
T0 KEEP US GiRLS 0N TRACK...
NEVER L0VE A PLAYA
`CAUSE HE`LL NEVER L0VE Y0U BACK

I Don't Need The Hottest Guy Alive, Or The Guy Who's On The Varisty Football Team - All I Need Is Someone To Love Me, For Me.

a boy realized he wanted her love back.. not wanting
to get hurt again, the girl said no. the boy cried to god &
asked " if it was really meant to be, why did i lose her? "
..god replied, " child, you didnt lose her, you let her go "

love you alot

t e a r d r o p s fall from those pretty eyes ..
kind of hard to move on when youre only told
lies .. shes breaking down, everyones fading
its been so long & shes tired of waiting. <|3

its NOT about being who EVERYONE else
wants you to be.. its about being yourself &&
finding SOMEONE who loves EVERY bit of it<3

theres a part of me that wishes all my
dreams would come .true. .&. another
part of me that prays -:- that i`ll wake
up one morning .. and be ` | over you |

you know when you start out friends.. every little
joke is hilarious. then everything he does annoys
the crap out of you. then finally one day, you look
at yourself and think, "dang, i fell in love".

wanna be that qirl he`s scared to lose
the -one- where he [ can`t ] walk away
from knowinq shes mad at him, the â€“one-
who can`t fall asleep without her voice
beinq the last -one- he hears the -one- he
wouldn`t know what to do without ..

Thats it for now.. the entry was pretty long

Megan

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

youre not best friends because you sit together at
lunch or have matching flip-flops or exchange clothes
youre best friends because when she smiles, a grin
forces itself across your face, no matter how mad
you are. when she cries, you feel her pain instantly
and want to cry with her. when you look her in the
eyes you know theres no one you could ever trust
more. you know she is there for you whenever
. . thats what it means to be best friends

THINGS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING:
Falling in love. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. Milkshakes. Bubble baths. Giggling. Long convo’s late at night. The beach. Running through sprinklers. Laughing at an inside joke. Laughing at yourself. Laughing so hard your stomach hurts. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. Just plain laughing. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. Friends. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. First kisses. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. Playing with a new puppy. Sweet dreams. Hot chocolate. Road trips with friends. Making chocolate chip cookies. Holding hands with someone you care about. Watching the sunrise. Watching a sunset. Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping, and kids are playing. Knowing that somebody misses you. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.Being in the arms of the one you love. Getting all pretty. Walking in the rain. Dancing in the rain. Kissing in the rain. The rain. Receiving roses. The first snow of the winter. Eating ice-cream and crying to a chick-flick. Going to the movies. Making a fool of yourself and not caring because you’re having too much fun. Fridays. Saying I love you. Hearing I love you. Cuddling. Pictures that remind you of good memories. Good memories that you think back to and start to smile

take chances..tell the truth..date someone totally wrong for you, spend all your cash, fall in love, get to know someone random, be random, say i love you, get angry, be the first to say sorry, scare yourself at least once a day, sing out loud, smile often, dance in front of the mirror, laugh at a stupid joke, cry, get revenge, tell someone how much the mean to you, tell a jerk exactly how you feel, let someone know what they are missing, laugh until you stomach hurts..live life*

No matter how ugly you think you are
That special person that loves you
Believes you are the most beautiful
&& irresistible thing on the earth and
Nothing can ever change that.

Be who you are and say what you feel
Because those who mind don’t matter
&& those who matter don’t mind.

i'm not even going to get mad anymore.
i just gotta learn to expect the lowest `'
from the people i thought the highest of

What do you do when the only one
Who can make you stop crying
Is the one who made you cry

it gets hard to trust someone when
Everyone you have ever opened
Your heart to has let you down.

I’ve been sitting here

Can’t get you out my mind

I’ve tried my best to forget

I drove myself insane

But the truth remains

Your gone ______forever.

She paints pretty pictures, but it has a twist.

A knife as her paintbrush, she paints on her wrist.

there was a time
where Id do anything to get you
but now id do anything to forget you.

when a girl breaks up with a boy for no apparent reason;;
it`s because she`s scared. scared to get too close
scared to get hurt; scared to be too vulnerable.
realize that she just wants to see
if you care enough to do something about it
&& never let go.

best friends are the fairy tales
of life - they've been there since
once upon a time and will stay
there until happily ever after___x3

i`m just having another one of those days
when thoughts of you fill my mind
and i can`t do anything but breakdown and cry
when you're around ,i`ll put on a smile
&& pretend that i'm okay
but in the end you should know
that it's you that made me this way.

Life is like a treadmill;
no matter how fast you go or how hard you try;
you'll never get anywhere

how come just when you think that
everything is perfect..
something bad happens?

her: don't you wish we were older?
        him: sometimes, why?
        her: i dont know. i just wanna get outta
        here and start my own life, you know?
        him: you mean our own life?
        her: what do you mean?
        him: i mean that if we were older, i'd
        ask you to marry me.
        her: ...and i would say yes.

there's only so much heart in
a girl that you can break, before
she walks away for good.

throughout life you will meet one
        person who is unlike any other. this
        person is the one you could forever
        talk to. they understand you in a
        way that no one else does or ever
        could. this person is your soul mate
        and best friend. dont ever let him go.

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apple's from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree

CRAZY DAYSz
SCREWED UP NiGHTSz
TONS OF CRUSHES &
STUPID FiGHTSz
SECRETSz WE`LL TAKE
TO THE GRAVE &
PiCTURESz WE`LL FOREVER SAVE
THROUGH THICK & THiN ALWAYSz
TRUE. I DUNNO WHERE I`S BE WITHOUT
`---YOUUUUU.

It's hard to look in
the mirror these
days; when everyone
is everything you'd
[ r.a.t.h.e.r be ]

Day after day
Night after night
Thoughts about you run through my mind
Wondering if my feeling are true
Or do I just want to have fun with you
Each day I can't wait to see your face
But then hatred somehow takes your place
That's when my feelings seem fake
So I am not sure if it is really Love or Hate

All the best love StOries
have one thing in common..*
you have to gO againsT`
the odds to get there <33

B0Y :: why don't you like me?
GiRl :: i do like you .. it's just ...
B0Y :: just .. what?
GiRl :: i'm so afraid to fall again.
B0Y :: this is different..
GiRl :: how is this any different?!?
B0Y :: because this time .... i'll catch you

i wanna run into someone's arms ; lie on a bed of roses. i wanna feel just like juliet. i wanna fall in love. i got a feeling.. everybody wants someone to love. somebody they can trust. somebody they can touch. everybody wants to give their heart away. everybody neeeds a little tenderness to feel understood. to feel passionate. everybody wants to be in love this way. i know i do ; what about youu?

to those of you who have pushed me, thank you- without you i wouldnt have fallen. to those of you who laughed at me, thank you- without you i wouldn't have cried. to those of you who just couldnt love me, thank you- without you i wouldnt have known real love. to those of you who hurt my feelings, thank you- without you i wouldnt have felt them. to those of you who left me lonely, thank you- without you i wouldnt have discovered myself, but it is to those of you who loved me the way i am, thank you because without you i wouldnt have survived till now.one day you will love me
like i loved you.
one day you will think of me
as i thought of you.
one day you will cry for me
as i've cried for you.
one day you will want me
and i won't want you

Don't think that no one loved you because they've turned away don't feel they didn't care for you because they couldn't stay don't damn the world for not returning the love you feel you've given don't hate the one you were yearning for because he couldnt make a commitment just think of him as an experience & think how much you've grown think of him as the sacred prince who placed you on the throne think of all the times together feeling closer since you're apart think of your plans of now & forever & hold them in your heart <3

Be more concerned about your character
Then your reputation cause your character
Is who you are and your reputation is
What other people think about you..

I'm starting
to notice myself
thinking about u
more and more <3

i miss you wen something good happens to me because you are the one i want to share it with first. . i miss you wen something bad happens because you make everything better. . i miss you wen i cry because you kiss my tears away. . i miss you wen i`m laughin because you make my laughter grow. . i miss you through all those times, but i miss you most wen i`m lying in my bed at night thinkin about you because before i always knew someway, somehow, you were thinking of me too, & that is why it is then i miss you most because i`m not so sure you`re thinkin about me anymore <|3 [(i miss you)]

Take chances.. a lot of them. because honestly, no matter where you end up, and no matter with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are... you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. be you, and be okay with it...

&& its like when your
not here; im not me<|3

You're one of those best things
'that has ever happened to mee
your my love & my best friend *
everyday that goes by it seems
like i discover something new
about you to love. it's incredible
- to me how one person can
`make such a big difference in
my life .' you touch me in a way
no one else ever has & give me
so many new reasons to smile-
i`ve never been so happy &&
i've never been so much in love

&& i never thought i would risk the chance
of getting hurt again, but for some reason
when im with you it all seems worth it <33

Life is too short so love like you
can't get hurt, smile like it's going
out of style and have no regrets
because it's all worthwhile *-

It's funny how someone can walk
into your life one day, then the next
you can't even remember how you
ever lived without them <3333333

She wanted something more..
perhaps to be more than second best

WOULD YOU TAKE MY HAND..
&& NEVER LET ME GO ?
PROMISE YOU'LL NEVER LET ME GO

i may not be perfect ..
but then again no one really is ..
but when im with you ..
perfect is the only word that fits

long nights of tears, lonely nights of fear
id wish that you were here, holding me near
they say its okay to cry, it releases the pain
all the things i want to say, are hard to refrain
having you away, makes it so hard to breathe
you say have faith, hope, and just believe
telling you goodbye, was the hardest of all things
because nothing can compare to what your love brings
you comfort me, offer security, and make me feel alright
i dream of you & only you each & every night.
all i can do is sit and wait for you to return
then i will feel better, and my heart will no longer burn

There is always someone better than you.
There is always someone prettier than you.
There is always someone more talented than you.
There is always someone smarter than you.
There is always someone is just one step ahead of you...
But the girl, who is better than you,
may just me the loneliest person.
The girl who is prettier than you
may not be so pretty on the inside.
The person smarter than you might not
have the love that you receive from others.
So never ever be the jealous one.
Love what you have because once it’s gone... It’s gone

sometimes i wonder what i mean to you
why did you leave those marks on my neck
what did i do to deserve to cry over you
you've made me miserable, a nervous fucking wreck
i cant do this, i cant do this anymore
do you understand how it feels being me?
where everything i fucking do...
is never good enough for anyone else
and that no matter how hard i try
the person i love, takes me for granted.
every fucking day.

be nice to everyone you meet;
they're fighting a battle that you know nothing about

i guess i'm just scared of getting too close
like last time

i love the thought, knowing you're here
to love me & I have someone back to love.

fuck the haters, the assholes`the people
out to get you, `the people who pretend to
be your friend those who are purposely
rude, those purposely lie, the hypocritical,
the greedy, the deceiving, the people who
don`t appreciate you, and fuck the fake.

Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
Breath deeply from this envelope, it smells like you
And I can't be without that scent, it's filling me
With all you mean to me

before i met you i was normal,
i didnt care about what people thought of me,
but as soon as you came along,
i suddenly started to care wut i look like,
and what people thought of me.
it's like you made me grow up, without even realizing it,
and now you never even notice me anymore
so why do i to impress you everyday,
when you don't even seem to notice me...

and she buries her head into her pillow
trying to forget every mistake she’s ever made.

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Sunday, November 13, 2005

i`ve learned when you grow away from your friends you always find yourself hanging on to the one time you can remember you were all happy. in middle school there is never just one romance. you will always want the things or guys you can`t have. people WiLL hurt you even if they might not mean to. kisses are not contracts & they don`t mean forever. just because people say i love you doesn`t mean that they do. long glances are twice as better than short. learning to forgive & forget is one of life`s many virtues. laugh when you fight for dumb reasons. always try to spend quality time with friends. go to sleep with a clear mind. .you`ll sleep better. the guy who loves you the most usually doesn`t have to say it because you can just feel it when he`s around. is it possible to be friends with someone you once loved ? some say yes, some say no. i think it depends on how much you loved them. if someone loves you, that doesn`t mean they`ll never hurt you. nothing can make you stay & nothing can make you leave. the heart only loves what it likes & hates what it doesn`t. when you think about him, is all you can do is remember your past ? or is all you can do is think about your future ? learning to forgive yourself after a mistake is always going to be hard. telling you one thing & doing another is wrong. no matter how many times you look back, never regret what you did. a part of me will always be with you. the heart is forever inexperienced, although it can be broken it keeps beating just the same. we love being in love & that`s the truth. to love is to admire with the heart. to admire is to love with the mind. the head never rules the heart, it just becomes it`s partner in crime. we know things better through love than knowledge. people who do not take chances or risks limit themseleves. people who say dreams never come true, never have had one that did. sometimes it takes a twist of fate to make a miracle. i don`t know whether to love you or hate you. a friend is a friend. . a lover is a lover. . being both just becomes too complicated. sometimes the best things in life really are free. breaking up is harder to do the longer you wait. love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longests, hurts the deepest & feels the strongest. no one has even loved anyone. . the way everyone wants to be loved. we all want to be in love for the simple reason that it is the one experience that makes us feel like we truly belong. when you fall too fast you get burned. the hardest part of learning a love lesson is the part where you have to walk away. he may be perfect but he is human. a smile can change everything, a kiss can`t cure everything, & i`m sorry won`t work forever. a phone call has the power to make or break you. sometimes you just gotta go. sometimes you gotta call a past to help a future. it is possible to fall for someone. . no matter how quick you fall. there is pain no matter what. . the pain that comes before the love or the pain that comes when it`s all over. i still love you, i just don`t know what you are now. i love you, you change me. you love me, i change you. therefore you & i will never fully know each other because we are always changing one another. i feel so alive cause someone like you found me & suddenly nothing is the same...

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